a time gap

For the past year, I was encouraged and had the privilege to be. ‘Be in the moment, relax, let go.’ Words that are music to my ears, and also, something I didn’t truly know how to do. There lies the problem, you don’t do anything. 

At first, I felt irritable, floaty, fidgety, guilty - ‘AHHH! I should be DOING something!!’

Then, slowly, my whole self began to release like an unclenching fist. My body exhaled for what felt like the first time in my life. 

Social media was dropped and my phone sat in the charger more often than in my hand. Long, deep, and delicious conversations blossomed with the human in front of me. Extended stretches of silence would pass and I no longer felt awkward sitting in those moments. Magic unfolded before my eyes and my intuition grew wildly strong. I even started to look different physically. 

Then I understood. I truly felt it. 

Being. 

Being here, now. 

The most important work is not rushing around. It’s not the doing. The magic happens in the spaces in between. The being. 

This is a practice I will spend the rest of my life perfecting.